I don’t know how or when this happened but I am starting to conceptualize the weight of my past. It’s just a lot of stuff.
I have been acting so impatient especially when it comes to therapy and processing my memories. I have my own method that I thought was working until recently- I was trying to process my memories using the band-aid method. But today…tonight I just realized that it is what causes me to be overwhelmed and flooded.
This stuff is heavy and a lot. I realize now that I need to slow down and listen to my T more often. I just want to be free of these memories as soon as possible- and I’m getting there but I just need to slow down.