Triggered Tales of March

It was almost an instant feeling when March ended and April began yesterday. I slept for 12 hours last night because my insiders were finally calm enough for me to relax. It was such a nice feeling- rested today so that I could actually focus on my schoolwork.

Even though March felt incredibly long and difficult, I actually learned many things about myself. I made a list-, which is no particular order it is merely word vomit :)

  • I am defiantly stronger than I think I am.
  • Bribery doesn’t work during high trigger times because my alters are not always able to cooperate.
  • I am sensitive about being sensitive.
  • I have a really awesome person in my life right now (and she reads my blog).
  • I have emotions.
  • I’m thankful my brain and my heart are not connected.
  • I am getting better at controlling my flashbacks on my own.
  • I still have a ton to work on.
  • I’m more “normal” than most people.
  • If I am more active and run more during high trigger times the endorphins balance out my alters.
  • I get triggered when people are behind.
  • I get paranoid by old people in starbucks but they really aren’t there for me.
  • Suicide  is no longer an option and an instant thought for my alters.
  • My alters try to pet the fish in my fish tank.

Thanks to everyone for sending me your supportive words both online and in real life.

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One thought on “Triggered Tales of March

  1. i usually come out of my seasonal funk mid-to end of april too. i am glad you can feel the changes already. this is a good list. i should do one of those myself sometime soon as i’ve been learning a lot about myself this year. it’s a marvelous idea.

    best wishes

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