Sometimes I feel like I am taller when I know that it is not physically possible for my height to change daily. I have a friend that it the same height as I am but today I finally realized why I say that I feel taller than her.
Let me just say that the mind-body connection of DID is fascinating. At times, it is very validating because I sometimes doubt that I am a multiple because I still experience some denial and I still find myself saying “is this real life?” because sometimes my memories are so bizarre that I am not sure if I’m in real life. I don’t know what would be the opposite if real life? Maybe a fake life…nonetheless, I still find myself wondering the life that singletons live.
I wish that somehow I could calculate how much of my brain I constantly use. I have this class that is about the multiple intelligence [no pun intended :)] and I feel like one or many of my alters could fit into all of them. I often wonder what integration would be or feel like- maybe I could integrate all my alters into one and become a superhero. Which would be totally awesome in my opinion.
Ok so I was supposed to talk about my realization about height. So I realized today when other alters are close or when they look through my eyes they perceive themselves as taller than my body actually is- again this mind/body connection is fascinating. I wish more people knew about it because I def think its worth being studied.