I wonder when the sadness will go away and when I won’t be affected by holidays. I keep telling myself that it is just “a day” but it’s my body that reacts.
It’s frustrating because I have tons of great things going on in my life right now but I am still affected by my past.
My alters don’t understand the concept of time- to them time stands still. I am slowly letting them be in the real world but they say a lot of inappropriate things. But to them it’s not inappropriate and they get angry that they are sometimes not allowed to speak in public.
Some days I wake up and I am just sad. It’s a lot to do everyday. I wish I could cry but right now I can’t.