Wellness is harder than the books make it out to be. Being healthy and safe is good but it’s uncomfortable.
Internal communication is hard. It makes me feel very alone. Co-consciousness is scary because everyone of my alters are me. I have to accept that “I” did a lot of bad things.
Don’t get me wrong co-consciousness is not always a bad or uncomfortable thing. Since establishing co-consciousness my grades have improved and I get more sleep. Both those things are good but it’s hard to in that place.
I wish people understood that the reason I say weird things sometimes is because I am merging one world with another. Both worlds are very disconnected from each other- I live somewhere in the middle of the two. Not a happy medium but I am neutral to both teams.
Being in this place is just exhausting.