My blog has given me so many things. When I created it in nearly a year ago, I never imagined that I would have so many healthy friendships because of it. My blog in itself is a friendship that I continually work on. I do not just write on bad days I write on the good days. I write about basically whatever I want.
I recently had a conversation with someone about how “normal” multiples really are. I always feel like people can tell that I have constant chatter in my head. However, the truth is they cannot.
When people meet me, they see a very un-integrated self who is healthy, organized and loves food. As a whole I am a very random person, I really do not enjoy “getting deep” with my friends. I don’t like “getting deep” with my therapist but I do because I know it can help me.
Ok so the purpose of this post is to write about one of my therapy sessions last week. Ok so I have these parts (see my last blog post) that have been talking to our therapist. In order for them to come to surface, other parts have to come out first. They go through a very young part that only experiences flashbacks because that is her means of communication. She is learning how to fast-forward her flashbacks but nonetheless still experiences them.
Random thought: Spell check does not understand that I am a multiple. It is constantly trying to correct my sentences and does not understand internal communication.
The repressed parts come out and talk to my therapist and they learn about 2011. They had no idea that our body is in its mid 20’s. The outside world is foreign to them and in order for them to join our team; they need to see what goes on in 2011.
After our session was over, we felt different. An indescribable feeling of maybe relief regardless something shifted. I guess this is the feeling that people talk about- the thing that some people experience after expressing feelings or in my case letting parts out.