Quite honestly, I feel beyond hopeless. I am so frustrated at so many aspects of my life currently.
I wish I could let my guard down a little bit in therapy so I could let other parts just do their thing. I am deathly afraid of not being able to come back after the session is over.
These parts that I want to do work in therapy are not like my other parts. They do not listen and refuse to make compromises. I do not like the place that I am now stuck in. It is so uncomfortable and scary.
These parts got pushed down for a while and now they are back and so angry. I am just scared because last time these parts were out we were hospitalized for a long time. I know that things are different now but it doesn’t make it less scary.
I am waiting for a break that may not honestly exist.