Within my family, there are strict roles that males and females are supposed to follow.
Its seems as though females are to be label obsessed, naive beings always making males feel as though they are dominant beings. Males are supposed to be the “providers” and one who shows no emotions and they can do no wrong.
Lately I have been thinking a lot about gender roles. I am searching for this acceptance from my family that is never going to come.
For a long time I had so much anger towards the unacceptance I experience daily until I realized something.
“How is this helping me?”
My answer was that this anger towards my family is not helping me. It is also hindering my friendships because I tend to transfer my angry and defensive feelings.
Therefore, I am trying to let go on anger.
Do not get me wrong, I do forgive people when they are truly sincerely sorry. Nevertheless, in the case of my family detachment is the only alternative right now.
As I search for my role within my family structure, I am slowly realizing that I am part of a different kind of family. I am part of a big internal family where everyone accepts me just as I am.