Famished & Forgotten

“Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat…We must find each other”-Mother Teresa

This quote expresses so much for me right now.

The abuse during my childhood was not the worst thing that has happened to me. I adapted to the abuse and developed a means of survival.

I think the worst thing that happened to me was the betrayal and unacceptance I experience (d) from my family. Feeling unloved is so painful.

That is one feeling I am unable to dissociate away.

When I do get acceptance from my friends and people who support me I am unable to feel it. I want to be close to people but I cannot.

I am not allowed to feel love.

I am unlovable.


3 thoughts on “Famished & Forgotten

  1. Hope4–what you are is not what people did to you. Or how you were failed. You are a valued and valid woman who has many, many virtues. Many great qualities. Unloved does NOT mean unloveable. ;)

  2. Hope, you are not unlovable, you just don’t feel it. I experience what you do and it is as you say – the worst imaginable thing. It hurts so big and so completely. My heart goes out to you and I hope there is some relief soon to ease your pain. I wish I had great words of wisdom.

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