The winter holidays are almost over. 2010 is here.
I was not very successful at maintaining the boundaries of not hugging anyone. The aftermath from my family does not help me very much. In addition, no matter how many times I tell someone “no thanks” when they come to hug me they do not listen.
After the ball dropped on New Year’s everyone in my family hugs and kisses each other. This year I did not participate.
However, my friend said something to me that made me feel hopeless; she said, “Eventually you are going to have to get over this no touching thing, because it is disrespectful”.
No one really understands why touch is so scary and uncomfortable for me. They just view my refusal of touch as disrespect. I have this dichotomy going on between what I learn in therapy and what my family expects of me. I just do not know how to do the right thing.
I want acceptance but I find that I am not able to do what it takes to gain my families acceptance.
I hope everyone has a good year.